It's All Capitalism, It's All Awful (or, I Lost / I Gained: A Pandemic Balance Sheet) is a project of the Feminist Media Studio that documents what has been lost and gained during the last two years of the pandemic. These receipts are a balance sheet for times of unbalance, a record of the affects of the pandemic, the costs of quarantining, illness and death, overwork, and border closures, and the dreams of more just futures. Each receipt helps to create an anchor and archive of the feminist everyday.
vulnerability, belief in.
RECEIPT#: 0000199
Fri 10/02/2023 02:32:47
My flatmates are now my colleagues, aides, parents, children, advisors, nemeses, shareholders, nurses, nursers, cooks, players, participants, contributors, caregivers, caretakers, drivers, debaters, discussants, accomplices, comrades, friends.
RECEIPT#: 0000193
Fri 10/02/2023 02:27:29
What to do locked in my apartment for months on end. The ghost of my grandmother visited and the next thing you know I’m crocheting my own coat/dress/hat/etc. Now I can’t stop. 🙂
RECEIPT#: 0000191
Fri 07/10/2022 01:06:33
all the loss has given me a new perspective on what really matters to me, and what doesn’t. i have become far more deliberate in how i use my time.
RECEIPT#: 0000189
Tue 06/09/2022 02:29:09
and now what am I going to do to process all this?
RECEIPT#: 0000185
Tue 26/04/2022 12:51:49
the shivers sent up my spine every time I hear a cough >>>>
RECEIPT#: 0000183
Mon 25/04/2022 02:06:55
No more commuting = more time to move where I want, whenever I want, however I want.
RECEIPT#: 0000181
Mon 25/04/2022 02:02:59
and they bring so much joy into my life
RECEIPT#: 0000166
Thu 07/04/2022 12:27:58
both with myself and others. Social distancing meant fickle relationships faded away, but in that space I wove a web of love around myself instead.
RECEIPT#: 0000164
Thu 07/04/2022 12:27:24
Bored, we’ve been scouring Marketplace. So far we’ve got a uranium glass juicer, a porcelain telephone, a pitcher and glass set in the shape of pineapples, 14 milk glass vases and a salad bowl that we will mourn when it inevitably gets smashed.
RECEIPT#: 0000160
Tue 05/04/2022 05:26:45
It feels a lot harder to take anything for granted now. If nothing else, I appreciate the little things more than I used to.
RECEIPT#: 0000153
Mon 21/03/2022 01:06:32
what is far can be close, what is close can be far.
RECEIPT#: 0000148
Tue 15/03/2022 07:28:00
no time or space for minced words
RECEIPT#: 0000144
Tue 15/03/2022 07:22:26
new alliances, new antagonisms, across uneven and unexpected lines.
RECEIPT#: 0000140
Mon 14/03/2022 03:18:47
To see the world again anew, terrifyingly, wondrously.
RECEIPT#: 0000134
Sun 13/03/2022 09:31:46
7-day averages
Bar curves
Heat maps
Aerosol patterns
Transmission schemas
RECEIPT#: 0000131
Fri 11/03/2022 12:52:12
self-government, home rule.
RECEIPT#: 0000197
Fri 10/02/2023 02:31:43
What is work anyway (if I do it for myself and yet it still doesn’t pay my bills?) And what the heck does it have to do with ethics if I will be the only one that profits from doing that work?
RECEIPT#: 0000195
Fri 10/02/2023 02:30:03
When the pandemic hit, I maintained jobs from home. With the loss of the commute meant the loss of a regular “schedule”. I can do anything at anytime, and boy have I been making the most of that.
RECEIPT#: 0000177
Mon 25/04/2022 02:00:47
When the pandemic hit, I maintained jobs from home. With the loss of the commute meant the loss of a regular “schedule”. I can do anything at anytime, and boy have I been making the most of that.
RECEIPT#: 0000179
Mon 25/04/2022 02:00:47
When the pandemic hit, I maintained jobs from home. With the loss of the commute meant the loss of a regular “schedule”. I can do anything at anytime, and boy have I been making the most of that.
RECEIPT#: 0000175
Mon 25/04/2022 02:00:46
When the pandemic hit, I maintained jobs from home. With the loss of the commute meant the loss of a regular “schedule”. I can do anything at anytime, and boy have I been making the most of that.
RECEIPT#: 0000173
Mon 25/04/2022 02:00:45
When the pandemic hit, I maintained jobs from home. With the loss of the commute meant the loss of a regular “schedule”. I can do anything at anytime, and boy have I been making the most of that.
RECEIPT#: 0000171
Mon 25/04/2022 02:00:44
When the pandemic hit, I maintained jobs from home. With the loss of the commute meant the loss of a regular “schedule”. I can do anything at anytime, and boy have I been making the most of that.
RECEIPT#: 0000169
Mon 25/04/2022 02:00:43
Suddenly I find myself in my mid-20s, unable to just let life happen to me as I once did. I have to be careful with the decisions I make.
RECEIPT#: 0000162
Thu 07/04/2022 12:22:35
Manitoba slashed its healthcare funding in 2019. We’ll never know for sure how much that sped the cancer’s effects, but by the time a bed was ready for him it was too late.
RECEIPT#: 0000158
Tue 05/04/2022 05:20:58
of how many times I thought “when this is over…”
RECEIPT#: 0000155
Tue 29/03/2022 12:05:26
you feel like you’re stuck at home until you’re really stuck at home, nothing really compares
RECEIPT#: 0000151
Mon 21/03/2022 01:04:54
I mean what happened to that idea… it was here and then *poof* it was all ‘back to work’!
RECEIPT#: 0000146
Tue 15/03/2022 07:24:14
This all doesn’t work, hasn’t worked, will not work for anyone (except for a few, we know who). Giving up hope in what exists feels like planting a seed for what continues to struggle to.
RECEIPT#: 0000142
Mon 14/03/2022 03:27:30
with the unmasked
and sloppily half-masked
and the willful loop hanging off one ear…
RECEIPT#: 0000129
Fri 11/03/2022 12:48:23